i wish i am in love again
but too bad
it will not happen in this few days
as i am too busy
busy with my school work
with YAH birthday bash
even if i have a crush with someone
i will not have time for the person
i think by the time when i am free
that guy will be attract again
and i will be left alone again
broken-hearted
so i will not go and look for one now
let fate take control of everything now


i just fall in love again
fall in love in music
using music to numb all my feeling
like song from 1st lady
nice
:)
the song can really make me relax
and stop me from thinking too much
close my eyes
to relax


and let my imagination run wild
enjoy my life for once in my lifetime
don need to think of anything
it is just me and my world
a world of blue sky and white cloud
bird chriping
flowers blossoming
as if they are smiling
the sun is nice and bright
not too bright
just nice
and i am wearing a simple white dress
picking up some flowers to put in a vase
there is a book on the table
the book that i love to read the most
there would a big tree
and there is a swing
a prefect place to read, play or have a little nap
how i wish this could be real
but still we have to face reality
so thing could happen
there is no way, we could force it to happen
so let it go by nature

friends
i hope you all have sign up already
and let have fun on that day
:D
fun
fun

Labels: daydream

*sneeze*
tissue....
today is my 1st day of my 3 day break
i wake up at about 10am
good mood
after about 9t0 10 hours of sleep
i sure that i have at least 9.5hours of sleep

*sneeze*
have enough sleep
just enough to make my day
:D
more hyper already
but still abit moody during mealtime
don feel like eating much
hmm

*sneeze*
today i do spring cleaning
yeah i know it is still too much early to do spring cleaning
still havent celebrate christmas
and i am cleaning up my room
because my mum has been nagging me to do spring cleaning
so i being a good girl
do the spring cleaning

*sneeze*
as she wished i spring clean
till she is speechless of me
she is nagging that i got lot of useless thing
asking me to throw something
so i really throw
i went through all my thing
and i really throw

*sneeze*
i throw about all my thing in my drawer
half of my thing in the cupboard
1/4 of the thing on the shelf
when my mother come to see how much i have progress
thinking to ask me throw more thing
(because i usually will not want to throw anything)
but when she come in the room
and see what has left
she turn speechless
because i really throw alot
there is nothing to complain now
haha
love to see that look on my mother's face
:D
speechless to the max
ok
my brother also speechless
seeing how i tidy my room today
so mood will really affect how effective is my cleaning of my room
and my brother is up next
my mother is going to nag at him soon
after his exam
:D

*sneeze*
and you all might be wondering
why am i sneezing
i sneezing because of the after effect of the spring cleaning
because my nose alway feel extermely itch
afte i do any spring cleaning
or come in contract with anything dusty
just a bit of dust
i will also sneeze
how is better already
but just now
i am sneezing non-stop
haha

and today after a long time
i have a class mass conversation
with my dear 4Ach classmates
miss them
and they are planning for a class outing
on 29 nov, 3pm
at ECP
looking forward to it
:D

ok
dear friend
read email now
just send you all
sorry if i send some of you alot of email
repeated one
:P
because i add you all in some groups
so some of you all in more than 1
so sorry that
:P
take part in the event
i really hope that you all can come
let take it as a gathering session
i really miss you
so i really hope that you all can come
:D
so sign up now
don sign up too last minute
or i will never know who is coming
as i want to give you all a reminder email
to take sure that you all will come on time
ok
so sign up now
:D

ok i will go back to my sneezing
i am thinking
i sneezing is because of the spring cleaning
or am i falling sick?
or it is because someone is missing me
:D
i hope it is the last one
it will be great
if you are missing me
so sign up now

1 sneeze = someone missing/thinking of you
2 sneeze = someone scolding you
3 or more sneeze = you are falling sick
but i got lot of friends
so they are missing/thinking of me
then i will sneeze more
so i hope that you all are missing/thinking of me
because i am missing and thinking of you all
:D

Labels: sneezing

today is the eve of a hoilday
yeah
finally
i have three days of break
can sleep 10-12h again
:D
it will be very enjoyable
:D

and i am bored again
want to eat book
hmm
go where and borrow book?
tomorrow public hoilday
so library did not open
so how?
hmm

satursday
i will go library
and borrow something to read
before i am completely bored to death
will kill me lor

i want to go watch movie
i want to watch 2012
or new moon
but actually
i watched new moon already
just watched
watched online
but still want to watch
....
i want movie

i am still emo?
according to vithya
i am very emo
i did not smile much
....
ok
i don feel so hyper as compare with my usual self
but still i am more hyper already
so i am not emo
i am recovering back to my usual self
hope after this break
i will be more hyper
so hyper till people will ask me to keep quiet
:D
if that is possible
too hyper already
:D

i change my blogskin last night
to mark that i have grown older
i have changed
i have become more mature
think for other
for think for myself
will think out of the box alot
will become more like a leader
but still i like rabbit/bunny alot
so my blogskin still got rabbit/bunny

friend,
sign up soon
ok?
i will be going for the training also on 5dec
so i will see you all on 5
or 12 the actual date
ok?
lets have fun
:D

Labels: fun

peiling.
depending on the situation,
it's not that hard to be just you.
just don't care.
do what you want.
like that.
trust me, it's better that way.
finding your own identity isn't that important; you know what you want to become.
keeping it is the greater challenge.
sorry.
just feel like giving you some advice.
- fateen (a very good friend of mine)

after this msn from her
in the morning
i feel better
and more hyper

and today i will be busy again
busy with this and that
so got anything
sms me
i will try to reply asap

sign up soon
come down to W1 to take part in photo collage competition
stand a chance to win $300 or a pair of GV movie ticket
gain CE points
:D

Labels: see you

today, we are suppose to do photo collage
but in the end
we did do
but not as good as we have done previous

reason 1
manpower
only alice and i doing
because afiqah, leo, amalina, aisyah, vithya
all got something on
but aliceand i decided to do
after we realised that
the closing dateline for the photo collage is 30 nov
so we left 2 days to do
if we are going to YAH meeting on mon
then we only left tomorrow to do
so we decided to at least to do something

reason 2
moodly mood
not a good excuse
i know
1st alice is like quite moodly
then i start to be become very moodly
after i cry
:P
yes i cry again
i think alot
think too much something
i know i should not think too much
just keep it simple
but the responsible side of me
is just making me think so much
fearing for the worst
i cannot think positively
i breakdown
after a phone call
a phone call that make become emo

but still i will like to say sorry to alice
maybe it is because of me that the result today is not good as it suppose to me
i cry in font of you again
i cannot be hyper to reach out to other people together
how i wish i could be just me
just pei ling
nothing else
living a life that is simple and maybe boring
without stress
without worrying about this and that
let just hope that i will not regret what i have done
hope that what i have done will be success
i really wish that i could live a quiet and simple life
but it is like getting harder and harder each day to get back the feeling of being myself
i miss my old life
the old me

friends,
read email ok?
i will be sending email again
by tomorrow
i will resend you all
so that make sure that all of you will recieved at a least YAH birthday bash invitation email from me
to take part in all the event
the photo collage is ending soon
30 nov, 2359 is the last day to take part in it
YAH birthday bash will be on 12 dec (sat)
training date is either 5 or 7dec
depending on when would you all be free to come
miss you all

can i make suggestion?
after YAH birthday bash
can we meet to go and watch the star
because i think it has been a long time since we last meet
and it is like very rare for all of us being gathered together
so let meet
and enjoy ourselves

Labels: looking forward to turn back the time

age 10-18
calcium : 1000mg/day
vitamin D : 400IU
age 19-50
calcium : 800mg/day
vitamin D : 400IU
age 51-70
calcium : 1000mg/day
vitamin D : 400IU
age >70
calcium : 1000mg/day
vitamin D : 800IU


source serving size calcium (mg)per serving
milk & milk products
low-fat yoghurt 1 cartoon (200g) 420
low-fat milk 1 glass (250ml) 300
cheese 1 slice (20g) 130
fish/meat/beans/nuts
dried ikan bilis (with bones) 2 tablespoons (40g) 240
soya beans (cooked) 1 mug (180g) 190
canned sardines (with bones0 1 fish (50g) 190
beancurd, firm (tau kwa) 1 small cake (90g) 150
almonds 1/4 mug (40g) 100
dhal (raw) 1/4 mug (50g) 85
soya beancurd with syrup (tua huay) 1 bowl (620g) 380
beancurd, silken (tofu) 2 square (170g) 50
roasted peanuts, without shell 1/4 mug (60g) 30
egg 1 (50g) 30
soya bean drink 1 glass (250ml) 25
fruit/vegetables
dried figs 5 whole (95g) 240
kailan, cooked 3/4 mug (100g) 195
spinach (bayam), cooked 3/4 mug (100g) 140
chye sim, cooked 3/4 mug (100g) 135
beans (long,french), cooked 3/4mug (100g) 50
broccoli, cooked 3/4mug (100g) 50
apricot, dried 1/4mug (60g) 40
papaya 1 wedge (130g) 40
raisins 1/4mug (60g) 30
greens peas, cooked 3/4mug (100g) 30
calcium-fortified products
high-calcium milk powder 4scoops (25g) 450
high-calcium soya bean milk 1glass (250ml) 450
egg noodles 1 portion (100g) 210
wholemeal bread 2slices (60g) 120

today is sunday
and tomorrow is mon
back to school
hmm
maths lesson
i think i will be having some monday blue
hmm
emo again
haiz
and just now faci
ask me if i got learn amaths
so tomorrow there will be some amaths lesson
hmm
i wonder what it will be
is it Calculus?
hmm
i think so
haha
need to do revision on it
:D

today afternoon
i went out with my mother
went causeway
because she want to take the bone health check
haiz
too bad mummy
getting -2.9
shocking
....
good thing daddy is 0.1
haha
mummy
drink more milk
those that is high in calcium
after she done the check
we go window shopping around causeway
saw something that i wanted to buy
but did not buy
because it is over my budget
haiz
save money

i really miss my lappy
i have been seperated from my lappy for 4 days already
so about after 10-17days then i will get back my lappy
miss my lappy
and according to my maths faci
fujitsu lappy should be quite good lor
but still within 2 months
my lappy have been send for service for 2 time already
haiz
and according to my friends
never buy any lappy from school
because there is some possible for some problem with the lappy
haiz

friends
sign up soon
i really hope that you can come
so show your support
and it will be fun
:D
can play lot of games together
and enjoy ourselves
:D
so sign up now

Labels: sign up now

ok
i am here to blog about what happen yesterday
(forget to blog, plus the internet connect is....)
i finally have some time to read newspaper
because i too busy with this and that
haiz
poly life is very busy lor
and i whether who is the person who tell me that poly life is very easy
very relax
don need to study at all
bull shit
it is not true
i think it is about the same as in JC life
very stressful
would worried about this and that

ok back to the newspaper
i read two articles from yesterday newspaper
and i have lot of emotion for it
1st article
it is about two students
girl is 15years old
secondary 2 student
boy is 22years old
private school student
both students jump down from a HDB flat together
they are not in relationship with each other
they both have their own problem
the girl want to escape from the fact of be sent to girls home
after being caught red-handed for stealing
the boy is trying to avoid getting scolding from his dad
after having sex with a 14 years old girlfriend
(having sex with a underage girl)
this make me think
is everyone like these two
when we have come to problem that seems to the the dead-end for our future
we would choose to aviod it
is avioding the problem a good way to solve the problem?
why cant we use other method to solve the problem
like be brave to face the music
the mistake that we have make
be more responsible to ourselves


now the second article
it is a very disgusting article
in Peru
there is 4 people be caught red-handed for a series of murders
murdering, it seems quite common right
that is what you think
(and what i think at 1st)
this group of people
they kill people
remove the corpses' heads, arms, legs, organs
leaving the bodies
put a candle under the bodies
after heating the bodies
there would some liquids coming out of the bodies
you can guess it
it is human fats
and they collect the human fats
they collect it in a bottle
after collecting it
they sell in black market
that would be make into comestic
and human fats is a good anti-wrinkle
ok
....
it is very disgusting to me
and when i told my mother about this news
she says she don feel like eating dinner later
because she is completely disgusted by this action
and sadly,
this 4 people
is only a part of the group of people who are doing it
so there is still people out there
doing such thing to other people
selling human fats
and i almost completely wanted to throw away all my comestic product
it is very disgusting
if you don know whether your comestic product is actually
containing some human fats
fats from the poor victim
and my mother says that
if there is still people collecting human fats
then all those people who are fat
are in great danger
so she is like exercising like crazy now
to burn off lots of fats
lol

so guys exericise more
so that the killer will not be too stupid to kill
if you are super skinny
killing you will be a waste of energy
and time
lol
so it will be a good motive for all to exercise now
haha

Labels: running

today is my ALP
very tiring
but fun
:D
have lots of fun today

due i break down in the morning
because of my UT
i only can say i finally have let it out already
because yesterday
i already want to break down already
but i did not
and i rushing to YAH meeting
alice and i
we reach on time
but the meeting started late
haiz
so ended late also
we left HPB
at about 8pm
and i reached home at about going to 9pm soon
i am tired
but still finish all my assigment
and typed the minute
but by the time i finish the minute
it is past 11pm already



so today during lesson i very emo
and super quiet
but is hyper by the 3rd meeting
talk more
after school
go to afiqah's class
to go with her in the ALP
since her is also same day as me
and also my class
only me and Desmond is going
...
so i go with afiqah
but we went late
because her class thought that the ALP
is at 5.15pm
when it supposed to be 4pm
(i got told them)
and i think Desmond went alone
haha
too bad



and during the abseiling
i am quite forgetful
too nervous already
:P
and i notice something
the position for abseiling is about the same
as something that i did in leadership camp in EVGRCY
falling backward
and your peers will try to catch you
and during the abseiling
i am sliding all the way down
lol
i find it hard to walk down
so i start to slide down
when i try to walk
i will lose my balance
and i will need to sometime to gain back the balance
so it is hard for me
but still not back for me
in my 1st abseiling

after the ALP
walking to causeway
i asked afiqah, if she want to go star glazing
after YAH birthday bash
to de-strees ourselves
before w head back to UT mode
and she suggested to ask LJS and KC, and the rest to come
for the star glazing
if they want
and speaking of which
i saw someone in woodlands bus interchange
i saw KC
he did not see me
lol
and we took the same bus
it is till i boarded the bus
then he saw me
but we did not talk
because he is sitting
and i am standing
because i am alighting in the 1st bus stop
so we only wave to each other
and he seem surprise to see me
lol
i also abit shock
but the shock is not as high as him
:D
lol

friend
read my blog
my email
sign up soon
and maybe we can star glazing after the event
it will be fun
:D

Labels: who want star glazing?

i am turning emo very rapidly
after seeing my UT grade for my G102
i got D
for the 1st time
the lowest i have even get
my 1st D in my RP life
i emo already
feel like crying
emo
and i really feel my heart being tearing apart now
because the section that i miss
if i score in it
i would have got a C
+_+
T_T
my grade
i swear i will never miss lesson ever again
i will make sure that i will come to all lesson
even if i am not feeling well that day
i will come to school

friends
sign up soon
ok
i will update you all on any changes in the YAH birthday bash
if there is any changes in it ok
:D

sad
lappy send for service
and it is about the same problem that i have in the past
mainboard problem
sad
cry
....
so i will not be able to see the lappy for 2 to 3 weeks
emo

yesterday
on my way from funan to woodlands
(on the way home)
eileen call me
so meet eileen in woodlands
the funny thing is that
she says that she is waiting for me in the tail of the mrt platform
but actual fact she is waiting for me in the head of the platform
...
then we go to KFC to eat
got the voucher
:D
and some more we should support it
because for every meal that we buy
KFC will donate 30cents for charity
so we both buy something
while we are eating
eileen start to talk about her relationship with treeA
she start her relationship already
but the tree is really like a wood
can not sense people feelings
=_=
and treeJ is like in love with eileen
haha
what a complicated relationship is this?
so complicated?
so still eileen
i hope that you can happy ending in the end
no matter is with who
because i wish for the best for you
i do not wish that the treeA
will break your heart too much
it will be too painful
as i have say in my sms
if really cannot,
then it is time to move on
but hope you will treasure the relationship well
don give up too fast ok
let time prove everything
i hope treeA is really your mr right
so treasure the relationship well
but give yourself too much stress ok?
relax

now i am in school
in RP
in W16A
in chemistry lesson
mixed with some biology thing
hmm
interesting
:D
biochemistry
:D
hope it will be fun
:D

today after school
i would need to rush to HBP
YAH meeting again
wow
meeting every week
:P
busy already
my timetable is fully packed
so if want to ask me out
please tell me in advance
so that i will make time out for you all

i think you can tell that how busy i am now
this is because we all
really hope for a successful YAH birthday bash 2009
this all will not be possible without you all coming to support us
by signing up to come for this event
as no mattter how much we do to organise the event
without you all
it will not be a great success
so do come ok?

Labels: miss my lappy

today is a busy day

Labels: missing you all

yeah, finally i have finish my daily assignment

Labels: see you

Labels: back to being me

who is free on tue and wed?

Labels: united as one

update in YAH Birthday Bash 2009

Labels: promoting

ok...

Labels: updating

i got only one thing to say

Labels: falling sick

Place a tick for those that you think applies to you. Sum up the total number of ticks and multiply it by 5. Repost as “I am ___% ready to be a youth health advocate (:”

[] I don’t smoke.

[] I don’t drink alcohol.

[] I don’t binge.

[] I don’t engage in casual sex.

[] I don’t think of committing suicide.

Score:

[] I stay away from smokers.

[] I drink alcohol in moderation / healthy beverages.

[] I maintain a healthy diet.

[] I lead a healthy lifestyle by exercising at least 3 times a week.

[] I maintain a cheerful mindset and not let myself sink into depression.

Score:

[] My friends do not smoke.

[] My friends do not drink alcohol.

[] My friends eat healthily.

[] My friends lead healthy lifestyles.

[] My friends are able to solve their problems and remain cheerful.

Score:

[] I do my best to encourage people from smoking.

[] I encourage people not to drink too much as it is bad for health.

[] I tell my family and friends the importance of a healthy diet.

[] I know exercise is good for our health.

[] I know we must seek help if we have problems and not lapse into depression.

Score:

Total score:

Tag 20 friends or more to compare your scores! Find out about a youth health advocacy event-cum-celebration at www.yah.sg/nobody-but-youth!

try it, it is fun

:D

Labels: take the test

everyone is changing now

Labels: looking forward

long time did not see my friends

Labels: test?

Do you know that YAH is having a BIRTHDAY BASH on Saturday 12^th December 2009?

YAH stands for Youth Advolution for Health, a youth health advocacy group which was formed in 2005 and supported by the Health Promotion Board. Our main aim is to engage youths from the age of 16-25 years old to instil awareness on youth health (issues on leading a smoke-free lifestyle, alcohol education, healthy eating,, mental wellness, Sexually Transmitted Infections/ AIDS, regular physical activity).

There are two sections to this AWESOME YAH BIRTHDAY BASH.

1. YOU and 500 other volunteers are going to embark on a meaningful initiative to spread positive health messages through a pledging initiative outside popular shopping malls as well as on the streets! J

2. There will also be a NIGHT CELEBRATION & CONCERT where activities such as music and dance performances etc will be held!

All volunteers will be given a FREE T-shirt designed by youths along with a coloured lanyard for identification purposes. In addition, there will be other perks and gains. You will be able to expand your social network of friends, embark in a meaningful activity and get more CE Points/CIP Points among many others! And not forgetting, you will get a chance to celebrate the founding of YAH too!

So, what are you still waiting for?! Sign up at our website http://yah.sg/nobody-but-youth! You can also invite your network of friends to this event! The more the merrier! (: If you wish to, you can also sign up with your friends in groups of 4! Just indicate it in your online registration form!Feel free to also sign up as a CCA or a class! Email us at yahbirthdaybash2009@gmail.com and we will send you a sheet for everyone to fill in their details!

Note that there will be a training session for volunteers before the event, on either 5 Dec (Morning) or 7 Dec (Evening). Just pick one!

Also, be part of the "Nobody But YOUth" Photo Collage! You could stand to be the winner of a fortnightly lucky draw on facebook for the photo collage competition! Stand to win movie vouchers or $300 or both! Check outhttp://www.facebook.com/nobodybutyouth#/nobodybutyouth?v=app_4949752878 for more details! (You don't need to join the CIP to take part in this!)

For more information on YAH, please visit our YAH website at www.yah.sg. If you have facebook, you can also visit us at http://facebook.yah.sg!

We hope to see you there!

also forwards this message to your friends who are interested in this event

:D

Labels: cheerios, peiling

long time did not blog
reason
busy
got UT this few days
stress

Labels: drying up the last drop of my tear

today

Labels: painful headache